As this year is going to an end soon , and i reflected on how fast 2008 is. Definitely, all my failures/problems/discouragements/fears would have drowned me. Without Jesus, i wouldnt have ended this year well. This year proved God's faithfulness as he lead me to the end of this year.
Still rmb that i struggle alot in O lvl, and it was so worst till i thought that i am gg to fail my subj like E, A Maths, humanities. But when the result was out, i only fail my amaths. The good thing is tht i can still get to poly at least. cos poly requires to pass 5 subj overall. Praise God!
At least i dun need to retake my Os again..
After receiving the results, i thot that my nightmare has gone. But i was wrong. I screwed up my 12 choices of courses tht i want to get in. I have mistaken my MI results for Poly results and thus all my 12 choices was wasted. I didnt get into any schs tht i indicated in my choices. Instead i was being posted to nyp engineering course. I went to tp to appeal and even wrote letters to the school and my last resort is to write letters to nyp to appeal for change of course to cpt.
These days of uncertainty and fears, sucks ..i hate that. I have been covering my face with tears bcos of tht. I wouldnt even thought of nyp as my choices at all.
And at tht moment, when i have decided to retake my o lvl then swithched courses the nxt yr, God, you heard my heartcries. Indeed, my appeal to cpt was successful. yeah. I must be thankful that at least the course tht im studying nw is much better than engineering which i think i'll die thre.
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I never liked changes in my life. When i know that i'm moving on to tertiary, i really dreaded it at first. Thank God for engit 4 who is willing to spent time tgt for fellowship,etc. wic really strengthen each other's bonding. Though i was only there for 3 weeks, the "we're in this together" spirit really encourages and spur me on. That we're called in to make a difference in tertiary gp. Still rmb, how they celebrated my spiritual bdae cum farewell at kbox. l ol. This is one of my most memorable outings with them.
I was officially being transfered to nyp gp during Arete Camp. The culture in nyp is really different frm tp and i had to "force" myself to adapt to the gp as im quite resistant to changes.
Seriuosly, I never liked nyp, and the thought of studying thre really mades me hate it. The course tht i'm studying is not what i'm really interested in thou. And somemore i lived in the extreme East. What more abt 8am lessons? The fact that mrt is crowded in the morning really spoils my day. At that time, I could complain to God, and starting to doubt God's plan in my life..
But Along the way, God, you reveal ur purpose in me. You showed me the vision.
So....year 2009, shall be a year of breakthrus!
Not to forget, wanna thank God for those ppl that have impacted my life, be it in a big/small way. And also those who has alwaes been thre for me(you kno who you are). You guys rocks my life! Keep rocking on man! Haha. =D
I want more of your power in my life. More deeper experience with you.
I shall forget abt the past and strain towards the goal.
YEAR 2009, Here I Come!
BYE BYE 2008!
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2:44 PM
2:44 PM
Today went to watch twilight with keiko and xue er.
Edward Cullen is cool man!
Anticipating for the part 2 of it..haha.
After tht, siqin n qi joined us for dinner. yeah. had a great time of fellowship.
But Xin Yi not thre, if not AYF is complete.
Xue Er, i pray that you will come to know the Lord soon(:
Renew the vision once again, Lord.
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9:19 AM
9:19 AM
Can you imagine..
I spent 1 whole week shopping! For the sake of getting gifts and dressing nicely. on 24 dec.
"The Gift" Christmas Service.
Now, i am super broke la=(
But i'm satisfied with the things tht i've bought except for the leggings n tube D=
Thank God that yeng ling and frend who came for the event, though they need to leave early.
I'm really encouraged to see that they are quite open to these kind of event.
God is never early nor late. He is just on time.
Let me share with you what happened on 24 dec..
Before the actual service, keiko, jess n me met up earlier, wanted to do some make-up.
Unexpectedly, i felt giddy n soon i "blacked out" in the toilet.
After i regained consciuosness, at that instance, i could nt see anything at all. I thought i'm gg to be blind forever. Again i fainted the second time. Thousands of thoughts ran thru my mind, that am i going to be hospitalised? After i regained consciousness the second time, i had stomach cramps which is quite serious that i could nt even stand on my feet. Thank God for the passer-by who offered me menstral cramp penadol.
Went to Gelare to rest and my cg prayed for me.
After that, awhile later i felt much better..but still having cramp.
In the service, God is working miracles! I am COMPLETELY HEALED! No More Cramp! Praise God!
This is the first time tht i fainted out of the blue. God, keep my body strong n healthy!
After service, went to the Spore Flyer for caroling. It was a long walk frm suntec and it was raining.
Due to the accidents tht happened at the Spore Flyer, there were nt much ppl thre. Within 1 hr, managed to carol to arnd 2-3 gps of ppl. lol. Followed by exchange gifts, then night rider home.
Thank You for the Christmas Gifts! (:
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10:31 AM
10:31 AM
Currently no visitors for ess and the gift service =((
Top 3 reasons: Work, hanging out with frends and dun feel like gg.
God, why dun you bless? Is the vision gg to come to past?
God, i need you to move in those ppl's heart.
God, i need you to lead me in every single steps i take to invite ppl
God, you nvr lie rite..why all i see is discouragement?
God, i need you to create opportunity for them to come
God, wont you break that chains of reasons..
why are you silence then?
"So I yearn for You
Long to see You move
Lord, I lift my hands before my King and pray"
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9:19 AM
9:19 AM
Here are my objectives for the 2 weeks breaks..
1. Excercise(gym, jogging)
2. Tanning
3. catching up on sch works, assignments
4. Eat good food =d
5. watch movies/drama series
6. Get a part time job
discouraged =(
Help me to be true to myself...
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10:24 AM
10:24 AM
After Ps Jasmine's challenge, i've decided to set the goals as follows..
2 cvts by end dec!
this is really a faith goal.- so that when it is accomplished, i'll kno tht it is you, not by my own strength.
exactly 15 more days to the end of this year.
Sovereign God, show me what you can do thru me.
Here i am, use me.
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9:44 AM
9:44 AM
Recently, sat is so happening.
After service, went to watch late night movie again.
This time round we watched "The day the Earth Stood Still"
This show is definitely worth watching as compared to the Quarantine. lol.
Although i dont really understand how the beginning part(the scene whr the iceman touch that thing few years back)is linked to the story.
The ending really makes you ponder and wonder what happens after the earth stood still. hmm..
I feel that klatuu, the alien is somehow like jesus at the ending of the show. He sacrificed himself in order to save the woman and her stepson. He risked his life and managed to stop the whole world from dying/destroyed. The shows really teaches us to save the earth. The scene really reminded me about end times. Is the world going to be in such destruction when the end times is approaching?
The end times is near..its at your doorstep.
Evidence: increase in wars, natural disasters, terrorism, etc
Christian start to build himself strongly rooted to WOG. Non-christian i pray that you will be saved by starting to believe that Jesus is Lord!
I'm really amazed that i managed to ton the whole night..cos this tym round not as tired as compared to last tym. breakthru! hahaa.. Thank God for that sharings, crapping,etc. Believed that it will strengthened the bonds between the brothers n sisters.
Backed hm at 8am. And im soo super tired tht i missed engit 4 bday celebration at joseph's hse.
Sorry guys for that!
The nxt movie that i wanna watched will be twilight. Anyone?
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9:02 AM
9:02 AM
Yay!!! Common test has officially ended today!
Finally..the long awaited breaks is here!
I wanna watch twilight!!
This 2 wks break, im gonna make it a fruitful one.
Randomness..
Miss swan is soo entertaining. LMAO! =D
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4:45 AM
4:45 AM