Mainstay – Believe
From the album – Become Who You Are
I don't know if I still have the strength to get up again
I don't know if I can face my own reflection
Jesus, take this heart that feels so cold again and make it new
I hold this hope inside that you'll never leave me
Chorus:
When all around me starts to fall and when my faith it seems so small
Even in my darkest hour, I will believe
Even if the sun begins to fall, even when I feel nothing at all
Even if I'm all alone, I will believe
I don't know how I could turn my back and walk away
All I really want is for your love to hold me
Jesus, take this heart and make it whole again
Chorus:
I know you'll never leave me
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11:50 PM
11:50 PM
Finally, today is friday! Yay! It has been a long wk but it seems to pass so fast. Was supposed to meet xue er, yan qin and siqin and qi to go back East View to collect the o lvl cert thingy but in the end didnt managed to go take cos i had extra make up tutorial for OC. maybe i shall get it nxt wk bahx. yeah. And oso i planned to meet up gillian to catch up with her, however, she last min couldnt make it agn. hmm..so went hm quite early. As usual, i walked past the place whre i used to walk back hm. This place is usually the place whre i met with him and it is the place whre i find assurance and strength. Due to busyness, this place is no longer a place that im able to hear his voice anymore. It became a normal place as time passed. I didnt even take the tym to adore his creation whenever i pass by. Todae he appeared to me agn. He showed me that he will lead my hand and bring me to the place filled with honey and milk. I stand in awe of him. Amazed, i take a few min to adore him and his creation. Have the urged to do qt suddenly so i took out my bible and read. however i was super irritated by the insects. lol. how contrasting. Im a creation pathway and i dun seems to like the insects too. There, is the place where i found back my first love. Believed tht this is all planned by him. Things that are happening in my life does not happen for no reasons. He holds all the reasons. He allow it to happen so that i will rely on him even more. I love the way he loved me. HAHA =DD
Psalms 23
1 The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love
will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
Thank God that today i hv the extra time to revise my work. Must be a good steward of life le! hehhe=] gg off to study le.
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6:13 AM
6:13 AM
Hey! im back to blog! recently, dont really hv the time to blog due to class test and reports etc. Nw trying to drag myself to blog =x cos i realised a blog is really useful in helping us to keep a record of what you hv been doin with ur time, do we use it wisely etc. It helps me to really reflect alot cos sumtyms i might suffer frm stm LOL. hmm good idea to keep a blog. haha! it may not be having a blog so tht other ppl can view my blog or wad..but really my tis blog is quite ''wu lu'' in the sense tht not much ppl kno abt my blog and i dun intend to tell ppl i have one too. cos i personally feel that a blog should be personal..meaning i can express my thoughts and everytink inside. i shall be true to this blog. haha. for those ppl who happen to view my blog, you all must be priviledged k. HAHA =DD ok lar..but really wad. lol.
Opps! side track le. LOL. i like to zi high in order to entertain myself. And its so irritating to ask mi to stop laughing can. Hmm..recently, having constantly attacked by satan. feel like giving up etc. iM TIRED and DRAINED OUT. tis made me even more vulnerable. really hv to reflect on ''What we do, Why we do''. Do we serve bcos of ppl? environment? Have to really check our heart attitude in serving God. last sunday, met up with min yi. We catch up with one another and i reall miss those time whereby we laugh, irritate and chiong evax with each other. Overall, yes. i miss EA1. We were sharing about end times oso. Cant imagine our hair stand as we talked. LOL. Went hm read rev 3. And these are wad i've learnt. Do not be a lukewarm christian! iT'S EITHER YES OR NO. The choice is ours to make. i admit tht my walk with God is nt tht good..it is drying up. I nid to do sth abt it le.
Alot of things hv happened be it in sch, family, friends or cg.
It does affects mi in sum wae or another. My eye bag getting darker..everything's changed and dun turn out wad i expect it to be..God can you tell mi why? is this a testing? Why why why? Wad is wrong can sumone tell mi. God, this is when i nid you the most. I wanna choose to trust in you. Bring mi back to you, lord.
i hv failed 2 modules so far. yep. thank God that im nt the worst person in my course. hahaa.
Another maths tests cuming again. have to score better in order to pull up my grades. Also, wana thank God for putting ppl lik evan in my life to help mi. haha. cai juan jia you!
wed was cg day. It was a combined cg with the brothers. And agn i really dun feel like goin cos hv lab report to do. Thank God tht the teacher extend the due date to nxt nxt wk. Praise God. bcos if nt have to pass up 3 oc reports on thur. LOL. Although tired and exhausted, i still choose to go in the end. I was blessed greatly by the fellowship and God spoke to mi somehow in certain area of my life. We went to bishan J8. Along the wae we crap alot..get to know more abt kai sze. She is lame. Haha. Guess wad, the theme for cg is Frienship. We played games and sabo each other and the forfeit was nice too. Eat 3 sour skittles. in fact i llike it. LOL. End arnd 9+, went hm with kai sze, hui mei & jey since the rest are frm north west line. On the train hm, had a nice chat with jey and really glad to kno more about this bro oso. Although tired, i received much more greater in return. yeah. I love fellowship! =] hehhe..
oh btw, i just joined NYAA club. WHEE! didnt kno tht im in the same cca as joy and bryan. woww. God's plan. HAHAA. =D Unexpressible thoughts ..
9:36 AM
9:36 AM
Lover of my heart
All I want, is to see Your face
All I need, is a moment of grace
It’s in You that I have the faith
To stand up and be strong
Cause I know, I’m no longer bound
It’s in You, that I have found
Peace of mind, freedom from my sin
And the power to love and forgive
I want to walk with You, every day of my life
To talk with You, in the good and the strife
You’re my friend, You’re my Father, for all time
Nothing can keep us apart, You’re the lover of my heart
God, thank you for speaking into my life, no matter how many times that you spoke i refused to obey or change, yet you still spoke to me in a gentle way. Thank you lord, for your grace and mercy. I want to change! I am willing to grow!!
Testings come. Help me to be an overcomer!
Romans 8:28-30, 37-39
28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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8:47 PM
8:47 PM
I'm really very glad to see that siqin and siqi are coming back to serve God. Praise God! There is an unexpressable joy to see your friends/sheeps whose heart are so heartened and how God has softened their heart. Yeah. God is real? Amen? Both of them are currently in TPJC gp. We have managed to overcome those period of time together, and now sth even greater is goin to come. Jia You Siqin n Qi!! Always rmb that God is with you alwaes, he will nvr leave nor forsake you!!! hope to hear from you guys soon. Really miss those times of secondary school life.. and the youth ministry. Last but not least, the AYF! You guys are really treasured and remembered!
thanks for the present that you all gave. hehee=]
For Siqin/qi, Cont to trust and led God lead your life. Total surrender and obedience leads to blessings! Amen. Cya in june camp!! =)
Labels: your promise never fail
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8:23 PM
8:23 PM
I'm back to blog! haha! yea. I wanna share a testimony tat God is real and good.
On wed we were supposed to have mcg, playing captain ball at tennis court. I started inviting some of my friends on sunday. And praise God, qh agreed to come. yeah. Besides that, she's brining her klasmates. Unfortunately, on wed morning, it started to rain heavily. .however at arnd noon time the rain stil did not stop. I was quite worried about what we gonna do if it cont to rain. While another side of mi was like hoping that it willl rain so that it will be cancelled. Cos i just couldnt get out of my comfort zone..half worried that wad i described would not be wad she thought den i will die le. lol! Many ''wad if?'' qn come to my mind.. during thinking skill lect i was rather worried about it. Nevertheless, God has made a way. Arnd 2+ the rain has stopped! woww! Praise God. In the end i had to ps my clinqe and went to mit them at mac. yep. Qh called and hurried mi saying that her klass ppl couldnt wait to start the games. I was like wahh..how cum bussiness sch student so hiong sia. LOL. Ive made them wait for quite long le..opps. Dhen Desiree and mi took the volleyball and went to find them. Thankfully, they did not blame us for bein late. The tennis court tht we booked earlier has been used by the tennis ppl so we could oni use half a court. lol. In the end, teletubies won!(dont ask me why its called teletubies! lol) We won the 80 bucks! LOL. After the events, went to sport stadium with qh and her klasmates to look at sporty ''shuai ge. LOL. opps! hahahh. At arnd 6+, went to the nearest canteen wic is the north canteen to hv dinner tgt. Ate prata and i cant believe the first tym i eat till so unglam. All thanks to qh who intro mi a new way of eating chesse prata. HAHA. we joke and crap alot too. esp evan the super lame one. lol. After diner, send qh and frends off, went back to libruary to to do lab report. Hanged arnd sch till 9 then went hm.
Thank God for showing me that he can turn the situation for the good if we trust in him. God works for those who love him. As long as our motives is right, God will surely bless! Indeed, God is faithful, we must be faithful to keep his blessings. Amen.
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
14 God said to Moses, "I am who I am. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I AM has sent me to you.' "
6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
yep. When we want to do God's work, he will provide. Draw strength from him. We cannot do it with our own strength! Jia you!
Labels: your promise never fail
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10:18 AM
10:18 AM
Since im so bored, im gonna take tis time to blog abt my klasmate n frends in nyp! haha!
we are alwaes in a clique of 5 consisting of wei shan, jia min, sakina, sheila n mi. haha.
Wei shan(Da jie da): She mit her maid at midnite@ mac lol! A vrey thoughtful frend oso.
Jia min: cannot mixed wid her or elso she will be violent n ''throw'' ppl. LOL.
Sheila(Clubbing Queen): Alwaes self proclaiming saying tht her face will be in the nyp advertisement in 3 yr tym. My train mate oso. Thanks for understanding my ''lame'' jokes. Talk to her for 1 min can faint one. worst still, alwaes drink beer and go clubbing! waiting for the ''one dae'' tht she will alight at amk station and run to sch within 5 min. HAHA. cRappy frend indeed. Alwaes fight wid ''bro'' SK n ganesh. LOL.
Sakina: A caring, cheerful n thotful frends, alwaes gt morning sickness. really enjoy your presence arnd.
Wai ting(sgt): Npcc sgt. Doesnt like to be late. disappear like a wind after lecture ends. Really amazed by her speed of doin work.
well, the names mentioned above, they're gonna be my klasmate for 3 yrs!Woah. Really thank God for the ppl in my klas, forever entertaining, funny, slow n steady,frendly,wierd etc.
I love CPT 0806!!!!! (=
Here are some photos of us..
sheila, me, jia min
hidaya, sakina,wei shan
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10:37 AM
10:37 AM
Hey! I found this very inspiring! :D
I ASKED GOD
I asked God to take away my pride.
God said "No". It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said "No". Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.
I asked God to grant me patience.
God said "No". Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned.
I asked God to give me happiness.
God said "No". I give you blessings, happiness is up to you.
I asked God to spare me pain.
God said "No". Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said "No". You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said "No". I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.
I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as he loves me.
God said... Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!
What if God couldn't take the time to bless us today because we couldn't take the time to thank HIM yesterday?
What if GOD decided to stop leading us tomorrow because we didn't follow HIM today?
What if we never saw another flower bloom because we grumbled when GOD sent the rain?What if GOD didn't walk with us today because we failed to recognize it as His day?
What if GOD took away His message because we failed to listen to the messenger?
What if GOD didn't send His only begotten Son because He wanted us to be prepared to pay the price for sin?
What if the door of the church was closed because we did not open the door of our heart?
What if GOD stopped loving and caring for us because we failed to love and care for others?
What if GOD would not hear us today because we would not listen to Him yesterday?
What if GOD answered our prayers the way we answer His call to service?
What if GOD met our needs the way we give Him our lives?
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7:43 AM
7:43 AM
The cuming wk will be even busier..
2 organic chem lab report to do
1 biochem lab report
QC dissussion
QC class test
and many more.........
thanks to todaes hol, hv to stay back for 2hrs of biochem tutorial and nxt wed for organic chem lab.
tiring, physically n spiritually drained.
Im gonna hv retreat with God soon, just realised tht thre are certain ting tht i planned to do and are nt yet done. Hmm..i nid to do sth abt my spiritual life.
Constant renewal of our spiritual life is impt! No matter hw busy we are, shouldnt take God for granted or even chuck God aside and totally forgot that he is watching over you. I nid to grow in tis area. God help mi.
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8:01 AM
8:01 AM
Todae is public hol! Finally! lol. And its the dae when i sleep till very late den woke up. LOL. wad a great wae to start ur dae at 12pm. My mornings gone wic i felt tht im too sinful for slping too long and a waste of tym too. Nevertheless, my body and mine was recharged. Cos i oni slept for arnd 3 hr + for the past few daes. Tiring mann..seems like im studying for my O lvl daes liddat. Poly life is indeed stressful too.
I was supposed to go for juli's hse warming at 12pm bt i overslept. oppps! Feel so guilty cos im unable to attend cg and todae oso din fellowship wid my cg members. lol.
Monday after school, stay back to do biochem lab report and do equiz. We joke and crap alot too. haha. Racist jokes oso. lol. We stayed in sch till arnd 10+ to 11 liddat. And we were like the one of the last person leaving the sch. Wei shan, jia min and i thot of taking the short cut wae wic is walking thru the carpark, bt when we walked the,realised tht the main gate is locked. Then hv to go big rounds. reached hm at arnd 1210 liddat. Sslept at arnd 3 liddat.
Tue still hv co trial lesson. my mind is seriously nt working cos im very tired. Thanks for the PED lecture, wic is unimportant. Nobody pay attention. Lol. After QC tut nid to stay back agn to brush up on BC lab report. Sorry ppl for bein so extremely blur. LOL. Was late for co trial lesson, was such a headsache to choose a instru. Im sure im nt goin to play zhongyingsheng agn. hahah. In the end i chose erhu, keiko chose cello. Congrats to her for getting wad she want. hehhe. Reach hm at arnd 11liddat,stil nid to finish the last part of BC lab report. Thank God for evan who helped mi out.
Wed after sch hv to complete semestral proj 2, the lecture nvr cum so hv 2 hrs of free period. might as well end at 1pm. LOL. Din managed to go for cg cos end at 530. After tht stil nid to work till 11pm.
yep..din really spent my tym wisely todae. went to study wid javin n carinna at ws mac. In the end kena chase out..so we went to coffee club wid no choice. The funny thing is tht we dun hv enuf $ to buy anyting. cos the food thre super ex. LOL. so we just ordered a cup of coffee. the waitress was like ''huh? you oni want 1 cup of coffee oni?'' tht kind of expression. Aafter tht the waitress serve as the coffee and guess wad the coffee was super small size luh..nt even compare to the normal cupof tea. joke of the dae. We left the place our very paisehh oso. lol!
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7:22 AM
7:22 AM