In order to increase the sense of urgency in me, i had to post this.
In 5 hrs times, i am going to have memory scripture tests.
Even a little small punctuation or spelling spelt wrongly, marks will be deducted.
This is how strict it is. lol.
Left with 4 proverbs scriptures and psalms 1 haven memorised. Ahhhhhh
I miss my guitar, but will see you tmr =D Haha.
ytd was my last day of work. and nw i am slacking at home. Sianzz.
But i wanna find another job that i can still cont to work afterr sch reopen.
I will be signing up for light ministry. Looking forward to it! haha.
The teachings on prayer really speak into me. And todae i repented. had been refusing to talk to him or share to him my whole life just bcos im frustrated in certain things or things dont go well. How childish am i. Cai Juan, MUST GROW up. I want to be child-like not childish. yup.
All right. I pray that there will be ppl whom i can sow on this wk. Only thurs and friday that im free. Movies, badminton any one?
Tmr is Children day! Im not childhood deprived la. Excited is cos i'll be gg to the Spore Flyer. Not that im so priviledged to be able to sit on it. but im gg ther to volunteer to guide the children to their various proggrammes. It is really a joy to help out cos children are the most innocence and cute ppl on earth! =D haha.
Hopefully i wont be as blur and get lost =x lol. Must depend on wan ting le cos she understand the briefing the most. yup.
Thurs, will be the actual day of being the lead guide for the pub thingy. And i haven rehearsed myself w/o the script. Opps. okay. Gotta practise tmr nite. yeah.
All in all, God really placed everything so nicely in my life. This wk, i need to practise on my presentation skills quite alot and my last day of work is on mon s well. yeah. today the whole day can memorise scripture. Yep. And solitude planning in progress. Thank you God! =D
A short conversation with the anoymousjust now , but it turned out to be the joke of the day. Thank arh sis..you made me called wrong no. LOL.
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11:26 PM
11:26 PM
Why? why is this still bugging me, pestering me inside of my thoughts.
Ive said that i'll nvr let it bother me anymore, but why isit still coming back.
Ahh....... Have i truly overcome it?
One mistake i've made: I dont have to compromise myself to your standard.
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12:21 AM
12:21 AM
Hey! I'm very glad that keiko is able to make it for service last sat. yeah. Hope she enjoy the service. And that she will come more often. I pray that she will come to know about God's love in her life very soon. yeah. The service spoke and reminded me alot, as it is quite relevant to our studies and working. As currently, im working nw, i can be truthful to say that i only worked for the sake of $. Everyday, i dragged myself to work as i had oni arnd 5 hrs of sleep due to my bad habit of sleeping late. Know that i shouldnt have this kind of attitude, be it in studies or workplace. Yes Lord, change me. We should give the spirit of excellence in whatever we're doing, not just in spiritual things only.
Anything that we do to glorify God = Spiritual
It reminded me to live a life of worship.
God is able to work thru the mundane activities in our lives!
2 more weeks and sch is gg to reopen. Ahh. I need to plan how to study effectively. Again, i know i cant get away from the test of being disciplined.
Nth is this world is free, we reap what we sow.
In order to get the results we want, sacrifice is needed.
Matthew 5:13-16
"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.''
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11:29 PM
11:29 PM
1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:1
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
What for do ministries if we have not loved. For it does not pleases God. Are we working in vain?
CAIJUAN, it's time to grow in LOVE!!!
Love-simply put. is to love the un-lovely ones. Haha=D
I didnt know that the OT survey class can be so stressed one. lol. Verses to memorise, assignments on prophets, quizes etc. Definitely, this will discipline me to grow even more in God. Ive learnt to appreciate the bk of psalms and proverbs even more. And i wont regret signing up for this course. For by God's grace will guide me thru. Haha =D
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2:08 AM
2:08 AM
Here are the results for my modules.
I was seriously very shocked to see my results. Initially, i thot im gonna fail my ped, maths and oc cos i had been failing all the while but i passed! Praise God! However, my GPA was quite low. But better than not passing right. All glory goes to God! Indeed, God is faithful (: I must work even harder nxt time to put a smile on his face(:
ORGANIC CHEMISTRY : C
ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 1A/1C : B
BIOCHEMICAL SCIENCE : A
PROJECT ENGINEERING DRAWING : C
THINKING AND PROBLEM SOLVING SKILLS : C
QUALITY CONTROL : B
Trust? Why isit so hard to find?
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10:26 AM
10:26 AM
Ahhhhhhhh..before i just realised, 3 more min to the 15 of sept..which means half of the month has gone. What have i been doing with my hols?? This is a qns to ponder as well. Have i make use of it wisely?
I wanna thank God for his tender love and mercy. Many times i fail, yet his mercy remains. I sinned and he rebuked me gently. Yes Lord, guard over my heart and thoughts. Search my heart over and over again and made it your dwelling place. Besides that, thank you for answering my small little prayers. You know what i really need even before i asked of you. Thank you Daddy!(:
From tmr onwards, i will be replacing Rebecca for the job currently. Yeah. And im really very happy that i sign up for the OT survey class. Looking forward to that. But the sad thing is that the results will be out on tue too.
The sermon preached by Ps Joshua Ng is really a ministering and inspiring one. It does makes me ponder about how i lived my life. One thing that struck me was this. ''Whatever we are doing now, is it connected to a soul?'' and also ''Are we able to sense what is it that God wants to lead you in speaking to the person's life?'' This all linked backed to our sensitivity towards God's leading. Many times, when God speak, we can try to ignore etc, but the one who lose out is us. The choice is ours to make. God gave us freewill to choose. Yes Lord, i really yearn for more of you in my life. Draw me close to you.
jerusalem!! here i come.. haha =D
Alien!
orange ''snake''
i ate a snake. wahaha! =x
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8:56 AM
8:56 AM
Last week i've been attacked by satan. I fell sick after nyp family outing. I think its due to my weak immune system and the poor weather. haha. Its terrible tough as i cant do much things..temp rise as high as 38.9 and it comes and go. In jesus name, flu shoo away!!!!! I pray i'll nvr hv flu once again. haha.
Just to update, im going to be pub tour guide for the sake of cip thingy. Position to be the lead or assistant not yet decided. haha. Gonna try out during the nxt trg session nxt wk. Looking forward to that!(:
Monday, we went outreach with the brothers at yishun. Though it was not that fruitful, but still wanna thank God for that. I was struggling if i shld come but in the end thank God i made the right decision to come. Im glad that ive started the momentum of evaxing even though there is no fruits. Ahh..God. it seems like outreaching in school is nt fruitful cos there are not much ppl oni left the year 3 students. We had to go on street outreaching, hoping to find the sec 4 students who might want to go nyp nxt year. God, see our heart and may you pour in harvest..
After that, Chris, Stephen, rebecca and i went to changi airport to welcome those ppl back from hk lc. Due to miscommunication, we thot that they will touch down on spore at arnd 4 or 5am. Lol. By the tym we reach there, we saw them arriving. But thank God, we still managed to get to see them. Haha. We ton the whole night at the airport, had a fruitful fellowship too. A picture paints a thousand words so i shall not say much. These are the photos we took at the airport.
Chris and Stephen
Rebecca and me
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9:36 AM
9:36 AM